Love Life, Hate Kittens

I guess it’s not like I never noticed
Ok I lied I never really noticed
Guess I never really paid attention
To what you like, how you are
All that bullshit
Now that I like you it’s an issue
I finally take mental notes
Of what is you
Now do I really still like you
Or like the ideal of you  
Impractical doubts, they stack up tall
Lingering marks on the wall
Physical signs of what has been
Plastic and paper proof of
What we had then
But truth
It’s not my space
It’s not my life
It’s not my place to say what’s right
I could tell you everything that is going wrong
I could tell you everything that is going strong
I could tell you today was the best day
I could tell you today is the last day
I could but I don’t and you know this
Cuz I try and try to console this
So I hide and hide and don’t hold this
As a grudge but it’s hard
Cuz it’s building
Inside and I can’t stop
Cuz it’s growing
I can cry
I can whine
I can destroy this
I can smile
I can lie
I can play this
Cuz truth is I owe you nothing
When bottom line
You equated yourself to nothing
You can self destruct
You can cure cancer
For all I care
You can love
You can hate
For all I care
I can live without the crazy people telling me
All the things
All the lies
That I’ve been repeating to me
I’m driving myself crazy
Trying to drive myself crazy
So I guess if I didn’t like you
In the first place
Then this wouldn’t be so crazy.